Thursday, August 11, 2011

The Dice Man by Luke Rhinehart

Traditional autobiographies wish to help you understand how the adult was "formed." I suppose most human beings, like clay chamber pots, are "formed" - and are used accordingly. But I? I am born anew at each green fall of the die, and by die-ing, I eliminate my since. The past - paste, pus, piss - is all only illusory events created by a stone mask to justify an illusory stagnant present. Living flows, and the only possible justification of an autobiography is that it happened by chance to be written - like this one. Someday a higher creature will write the almost perfect and honest autobiography: "I live."

Sophomore year in college I bought a really idiotic book called something along the lines of, America's Best Cult Fiction. What can I say? I wanted (okay, fine - want) to be a cool kid, and that meant (means) reading more obscure - but good - books than anyone else. So I read a book to tell me what books to read to be cool. (See that awesome logic there?) Ultimately, being the poor person I was (am), I could only afford to buy one real book after the purchase. So, after carefully studying my options, I bought The Dice Man by Luke Rhinehart (which is a pen name - henceforth when I'm speaking about the author, I'll refer to him by his real name, George Cockcroft (yes, that is a ridiculous surname) to avoid confusion). I then ignored it for three years. I do that a lot, I know.

Two months ago I hauled it back with me to New York from California, and I finally got around to starting it last week. And couldn't stop. Which, for the first time in my history as a reader, actually worried me a bit. There was something freakishly seductive about the book and the lifestyle it was fictionalizing, something oddly compelling about abandoning the construction of self for a life lived purely based on the whims of chance.

The premises of the book is thus: What if you left every decision up to the roll of a die?

Monday, August 8, 2011

Breaking Bad 4x04 - Bullet Points

Jesse: This is the part where I'm supposed to beg you not to do it? "Oh please, please!" And then what? I'm supposed to promise, cross my heart, to like, straighten up, fly right, or toe the line or some other crap that I'm not gonna say? Is that what your little show here was all about?

Jesus H. Christ. My heart can't take a show like this. I swear. The suspense, anxiety tension - pick a word. Whatever it is, it's going to kill me.

Spoilers from the latest "Breaking Bad" under the cut...